Hey guys i just wanna ask if you had a similar experience as me. Ok so I decided to have sex with my then boyfriend of 1 year and a half. I was young, naive and full of hope back then. You know how girls are when they're in love. We decided to do it in his house while his parents were out of town for the weekend.I felt pleasure I've never felt before and it hurt because it was my first time so I only thought that was natural, the next morning I felt happy and content. Then a few days after that guilt and regret started kicking in, then the next few days I was crying about it. I actually started to think about why i was feeling that way, that he didn't actually want to make love to me and just wanted to get himself off, cause when we were having sex there were times where the pain would kick in out of nowhere and I would tell him to stop or slow down but kept going at me rough. After we had sex he didn't even kiss me or hold me. He got up and smoked a cigarette, a FUCKIN CIGARETTE.
Also, it doesn't help that I come from a religious family, so there's really nobody I can talk to about this without getting slut shamed. I get it from school and I sure as hell didn't need it from my family. All those years of keeping my purity in hopes of losing it to someone special has been wasted, So I really really regret losing my virginity. I wished I had known better, I'm over it now and made better choices when dating men.
Also, it doesn't help that I come from a religious family, so there's really nobody I can talk to about this without getting slut shamed. I get it from school and I sure as hell didn't need it from my family. All those years of keeping my purity in hopes of losing it to someone special has been wasted, So I really really regret losing my virginity. I wished I had known better, I'm over it now and made better choices when dating men.
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